I remember the day like it was yesterday - even though it was 2011.
A couple months earlier I had gotten out of an emotionally abusive relationship. I thought when we broke up that would be the end, that I would move on, but no - that relationship haunted me for months after. My self worth was nonexistent, I didn’t trust anyone, and I was so emotionally unavailable that I was pushing everyone who was left in my life away. I was ashamed that I let it get that far when “I knew better.” I felt like I had no one to talk to, because I was too embarrassed to talk about what was going on. I never felt more alone in my life.
I remember coming home one day, and the weight of it all finally broke me. I collapsed on the floor and cried. As sobs wracked my body, I felt for the first time in years - anger at myself for letting this happen, angry at everyone else for not stepping in sooner, angry at my friends for “not supporting me” (even though I wouldn’t let them if they tried.) I was in total victim mode.
After what seemed like hours, something snapped in me. I put myself here, I thought to myself. This is my own doing. And then I cried for a completely different reason. I cried for the girl who was so eager to be loved she put herself in bad positions over and over again. I cried for the girl who was so numb to feeling anything she forgot what happiness even was. I cried for the girl who felt like an utter disappointment because she “didn’t have it all figured out”. Once the sobs finally stopped, and I laid in a heap in a post-cry fog, I made a decision.
It’s up to me to get myself out.
Since then, I’ve invested thousands of hours and tens of thousands of dollars in personal development & my own healing, through courses, certifications, and mentors. Now I can say I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, I know my worth and realized what self love really means.
The other side is closer than you think, and I’m ready to walk you there. Let’s take this journey together.
I love to travel and have been to 17 countries
I trained and showed horses until a back injury when I was 17
I’ve been playing poker semi-professionally since I was 21
Hobbies include yoga, hula hooping, and aerial dance